Make Love Not War.

Holy shit, I used to be such a homeowner.

God I was such a tool.

How did I even stumble across this, I had forgoten this website even exsisted.

um life shouldn't be so hard.
i'm sick of dumb ass shit always going on.
I'm sick of it being this retarded.
and this fuckin picture cd wont fuckin work and its driving me crazy.
im frustrated and i havent vented in a real long time.


grr.

I wish that I was able to be happy when I wasn't with him.

The only time I seem to be in an actual happy mood is when Im with him. I have an attachment problem hardcore and he can't deal with it and I hate being stupid and crying just because I didn't get to see him today and because he doesn't want to talk on the phone.
It really isn't that big of a deal but I wish my brain would process it that way. but no, I think way to into it and I take it way too far.

I'm a nutcase and I wish I wasn't.

:[

I've never been this attached and never felt this sad about such stupid things.
I was never that dumb girl that cries because she can't see her bf for 2 days.



I want the new iPhone :[

Ryan did you get my note from dana at Perks?

I hope so.I worked pretty hard at that letter lol.


Oh boy. I haven't updated in a really long time.
Nothings really new... I'm pretty crazy sometimes and I wish I wasn't.
but whatever we're dealin with it.
I'm happy?

Went to the Casino with Kylie and kelly yesterday that was kind of fun.
Kylie won 90 dollars on a slot from just one spin. that's it.
I was like wtf kylie wahl. but it's just because it's her birthday. haha.
that was so gay i was so mad.

I won nothing. I lost 12 dollars. hah. damn.
I love going to the casino.
bad habbit. i hate loosing my money. I wish I was good at gambling.
i LOOOOOOVE deep pockets though lol.
I'm hungry,
I'm waiting for kevin to get off work so we can go shopping. I love shopping! I gotta check my bank account.
just thought i'd let you LJer's know i'm still alive.

i'm so icey.
my chains so heavy that my neck don't like me.







So right now Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind is on TV and I really like it. One time Kevin and I watched it together and it was really nice.
Speaking of Kevin I get to see him tonight which I'm prety excited for.
In like an hour and 45 min. Yay :]
Tomorrow is Joeys 21st B-day party but I don't think we'll end up going out.


Oh and Kevin and I are going to go see Bob Dylan on Sunday.
My mommy's birthday idinner is tomorrow night I guess.

I am just bored so I'm rambling.

i wish I could knit.


WHAT IS LOVE LOVE? baby don't hurt me don't hurt me no more.
That was dance song party of the night.
I lost my phone =/

The casino was fun.
Lots of asians. haha. sleeping guy on a bench that we sat next snored a lot.
bumpin to britney on the way home. that's what love is.


I get to see Kevin tonight :]
I'm so excited!!!! I'm as excited as I would be if I hadn't seen him in a year.
Or so it feels like it. I got the b-flys in my tum tum and I am just counting down the min.
YAY.

I painted my nails for kevin too :]
I just can't wait. It's pretty exciting.

I hung out with K-Wahl tonight.
That was fun, we went shopping.
She's such a sweet gal.

I'm so icey.

haha.



I'm in a dilema like always. but it's for the better.

Something bad happened and I feel so bad.
I'm not allowed to discuss this matter.


Good news, Kevin comes home and since he realized that I'm not going to put up with his shit.
He's been like the best boyfriend ever. He tells me how much he misses me.
How much he wants to make me happy.
He tells me what makes him mad so we don't argue about it.
He is being the boy I wanted. I didn't change him.
He realized that i'm not worth it to be pissed off about.
and he's giving up drugs! well he still smokes weed.
But no more shrooms or acid.
Thank God.

I'm glad he respects my opinions.
And I respect his.

I love work. I love people.

I love my kitten.

now i'm 13 smokin blunts makin green.

Biggie is such a gangsta.


so. an update because i haven't done that in awhile.
I haven't been in the greatest moods lately.
Lots of ups and downs with life.
and I'm on an up that'll stay up.


Kevin and I broke up as most of you know.
and we still acted like we were together.
and he didn't want a relationship even thoguh i did.
and it was just confusing.
and we fought about it a lot and it was just stupid.
so Today was the day that he told me he wanted to be with me.
That I was right for him and we'll do good in the future.
So I hope he's right because I want that to be right.

It was weird because before today like a week ago.
he was telling me that he could marry me but he just didn't want to go out.
and then I called him a whore and that I was done and he wants to be with me?
Crazy I tell you. Crazy. But I'm happy.


I found these really cute Chanel shoes that I really want.
Chanel Chambon Ballet shoes. UGHHH.
I saw them on Hilary Duff and they were REALLY cute.
and not just because of the fact that they were on hilary duff.
OH I met a guy last night who likes hilary duff too!!
haha. I was amazed.

some guy named Ronald Hippie is calling my house.
I like his name. Ron the hip Hippie.


K I'm not crazy.
I'm just... crazy. damnit.

Happy :] yes!


Last night Cormier and King came over and we watched Click and it was fun.
Then Holla came over and we all chit chatted and I heard LOTS of stories.
Some about kevin that to me, make me laugh. hahaha.
He was such a ho. but I dont blame him. his good looks make it hard.

not so much.
anyways im in st. cloud right now.

it's pretty cool.
I was up here two days ago. that was way cooler.

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hahahahahaha. yeah. that's me.

i hate september 2nd.
it'll be the worst day of my life.

Man I LOVE the 90's and I can't get enough of it!!
Adrian makes me sad, he just has to leave for 4 months.
what's that?? what is that!


I love everyone!!!
I'm in such a good mood today.
Yesterday I freaked out on Kevin... Surprise.
I know right.  We really need to stop fighting.
It's annoying.

BY the way, Vail is the biggest ASSHOLE ever.
Sooo, Being the nice hot amazing girlfriend I am, I visted kevin at his work,
We're talkin bout the the dylan concert and how excited we are.
And then Vail's dumbass calls and was like "who's all going"
and Kevs like "me and bri for sure" and hes like "okay well I guess I can only buy 2 tickets"
ARE YOU KIDDING ME?? Hello, I was able to purchase like 5 tickets so that's bullshit.
And After he DIDN'T invite me to Tom Petty, I STILL invited him to RHCP and Mars Volta.
and then he can't even spot me the money for the Dylan concert?
What a fucking bitch. Seriously. I was SO pissed off.
Anyways, Kevin was like "I think Bri will be REALLY pissed so you can just get 2 tickets for whoever"
and vails like "well you don't want to go with me?" and hes like "go with your dad or something"
and hes like "whatever kevin" and Kevins like "dude, I KNOW bri will be pissed she's been looking forward for this too long"
and hes like "okay" and kevins like "we'll talk about it later I just don't really get it I guess"
My baby stood up for me good. because vails an ass and I'm SOOO not talking to him anymore.
I spotted 330 dollars for those RHCP tickets so who the fuck is he to say he can't spot 120 for these.
that mother fucker.  He just hates me and doesn't want me to go because he wants to do drugs before the show.
WELL FUCK THAT, AND SURPRISE MOTHER FUCKER I'M SLEEPING OVER IN HIS DORM THAT NIGHT.
SO HAH, TAKE THAT YOU BIOTCH!!! 

If you couldn't tell I"m still REALYL pissed about that.

But The drag queens and the hot gay boys booty dancing with me totally made my night.
and I am in love with David now, he's the cutest shit ever!! Ryan you should have introduced me to him way long ago.
I love him he's so fricken adorable.

and i love my cowboy boots.

a couple failures.
oh well.



So yesterday was weird.
It started out good.
actually more than good.
Like so good I almost cried of happiness good.

Then I went over to Kevs and he was being an ass so it started to suck.
Then we just argued for like ever.
about stupid shit too.
Of course.
so then I was starting to get over it havin a good time.
then he starts being an ass again.
so we just ate dinner with his family.,
and then we went to the hooka bar which i didnt want to do.
so then after that we went to his house and he was like im gonna call it a night.
so i left pissed because all we did was argue and he wouldn't talk about it with me.
so i just ran to my car and put it in drive and he comes up to my window after he was done talking to vail.
and was like have a good night. and left.
he's such a fucker some times. not because of that but it's confusing and no one cares so i dont feel like explaining!!

Then after that I went to hollas house and we watched a video of her sister skydiving.
and then we went back to the hooka bar but it was actually fun this time.
and then Kayla came up there and it was a fricken paaarrrty!! haha. jk.
but it was fun.  I got to see Nick Miller!! I love that boy.
and then we all smoked.
and then Kayla and I hung out and it was amazing.
I love that girl so much!!!! I never get to hang out with her anymore.
So it was pretty fun.  I don't know why but I'm typing extremely fast right now it's weird.
oh i saw thom knauff yesterday that was weird.
I actually saw a lot of people yesterday but i was too angry to talk that long.
except at perks and the second time at the hooka bar i was in a really good mood.
i think im gonna go get taco bell.
peace.

I just spent 3 days reading all my old lj's.
really old lj's.


Crazy.
Kevin asked why I am so addicted to him.
That was a hard question to answer.
I figured out the answer today.

I haven't talked to him once today.
Which kind of sucks.
it happens. he'll call me tomorrow.
Good.

i want some fucking FRANCH toast!
haha i love that movie.

Today was a good day.

love ya nat the brat!
and nate the great.
and dre the guy who ditches us to hang out with a slut!

I am feelin fabulous!
I know I update a lot a lot.
but I really have nothing better to do.

Kaylas back :]
Mackenzies coming home this weekend. :]
Kevin and I are going to have sleep overs :]
Justy is back too :]

I pretty much have the best life everrrrrr.
I'm just so incredibly happy right now.
I love it. I love love love it.

I work 5-10 today.
That sucks.  
I work 1-4:30 tomorrow.
That sucks too. Grad parties.
poop.
It's okay I'll be able to make most of them.


Anyways Im going to go sleep or something hah.

I get more ass than a toilet seat.
Shake that ass for me shake that ass for me.


I actually don't like that song.
Today I laid in bed till 4 pm.
I _{know right} i'm lazy.
big deal.
Kevin doesn't want to hang out tonight.
I'm either going to be drinking by myself.
or going back to sleep.
hah i'm pathetic. I'll probably just end up going back to sleep.
Unless Natalie calls me. then i'll go out with her and dave.
maybe i'll call King?

Kevin will be jealous if i call king hahaha.
I dont think he likes when i talk to him.
Yesterday he got mad at me for answering his phone because it was king.
I dont see the big deal.
It's true that he does get out of hand when hes drunk.
and he flirts a lot.
but thats what he has sara for :].

it's fafafafreezing out folks. I don't think I like it one bit.
Tomorrow is Kevins grad party.
I'll be there allllll day if you guys care....
Ya don't but thats okay.
I still need to buy him a gift.... I just don't know what.
I'll go to rosedale tomorrow and find something?
maybe? if not i'll buy him a $50 gift card to best buy.
it's not ^{as touching} but thats okay.
I'm going to go lay back down before work.

The seam on my t-shirt is crooked.

I'm so incredibly lucky :]

That's all I really wanted to say.

I'm addicted to bingo.
FREE bingo.

4th of July when I'm in Cali, I'm determined to find a bingo stand.
Oh... I'll find it all right.. I mean... what's 4th of July with no Bingo?
WHY CAN'T I BE IN MN FOR THE 4TH OF JULY!! that pisses me off!


Well.... I just wanted everyone to know how lucky I am.
hm... that could change but right now i'm happy as ever can be!
You never know I guess.



BINGO! <3

Yesterday was absolutely amazing!
We just sat around for the most part.
Kevin and I went to Katherine Scotts grad party.
ate food and left lol.

Went back to his house watched spun.
took a short nap.
Vail came over, went and ate more food.
had a bonfire.
they played music.
kevin taught me how to play the guitar.
vail left.
kevin and i laid in the grass and talked for about 2 hours straight.
it was a good talk.
i was just asking him a bunch of questions.
like favorites and things. just to see what his answers were.
he told me that on the first day of school when sara and I walked into class he thought to himself that I'd be the girl he was going to go out with for the rest of the year.
Turns out he thought right.
I told him on the first day of school on our way back to our lockers I was telling Sara that I couldn't believe Kevin Weingart was in our class.
It's weird how those things work out.
He said "I'm glad it worked out the way it did"
and I told him this has been the longest relationship I've ever been in.
He calls himself lucky. haha boy oh boy.
I'm just really happy. kevin and i never have conversations like that.
I'm glad we did. Who would have EVER thought that Kevin Weingart and I would end up going out.
He plans on us being together for a long time. He talks abuot how next april at his brothers wedding we're gonna do all this stuff and It's nice. He also talks about jsut everything in the future.
So I guess theres no future plans on breaking up with him.
I need something steady?? He just better not meet some chicks in college that are cooler than me or I'll have to kick some ass! jk i couldn't kick ass. btu that'd suck.

Anyways, I graduate today and I'm just waiting for all my laundry to be done.....
This is it... I graduate... soon!!!
THis is beyond nuts. Probably the most exciting day of my life.
Just to say haha fuck you school I'm done.
it sure is amazing.

Yesterday I walked around Lake Calahoun. That only took a billion hours.
Went over to kevins house. ya know the usual.


Today.... we're going to go to the Brave New Workshop.

Also today, I went over to Gay Erics house.
I totally love him. We hung out for a few hours.
Went to Mall of America.
I got really dark today. just from driving.
It's as hot as a crotch outside.


Um...


OH YEAH, ryan ross you are so cool and so included in this LJ.
That must mean you're cool because we didn't even hang out today.
anyways i love you.




I'm wearing a dress. weird?